temper...

kali niey nk update sal temper.. ak niey bukan la org yg boleh kawal ngat temper, tp xd la ak g marah2 org x tn2 pasal, 2 gile nme nye... hehehe.... kalo nk ckp sal temper, temper ak mmg tggi.. dlu lagi dasat, pantang org tego ak pown da nak melenting... tp 2 dlu laa.... skunk da ok daa.... hehehe.... ak igt lagi tyme ak form 4, ak bengang sbb pe ntah ak pown da x igt, pas2 ak kua klas, dok kat lua jap, konon2 nk sejok kn aty laa tp x berkesan pown,.... pas2 ak pegi tendang tong smpah yg x bersalah kt blakang ak... pecah laa tong smpah berkenaan... hehehe...tp x laa berkecai.. sket jer.. ak nmpk kecerderaan yang berlaku kt tong 2, tp ak wat bodo jer... ak msok klas ak marah2 g.. ak tolak2 meje la, hape laa... tyme 2 sume dak klas ak pndg ak x puas aty.. ak pown wat bodo jer... hahaha.... tyme 2 x pk pnjg g, dok pk dri sndri jer.. x pk owg len pown.. hehehe.... pas2 membe2 ak tego, soh ak kawal temper ak, tp mule2 ak mlas nk ambk port, tp ble ak pk2 blek.. btol gak ckp dorg 2.. pas2 ak try r kawal temper ak.. ble ak msok matrk, ak da promise kt dri ak x maw marah2 tp 2 d gak terlepas 4,5 kali... hehehe.... dok kt mtrk, x rmai yg taw ak niey temper tggi sbnanye... ak jd ok laa... kot?? hehehe... kalo cm org gurau kasa ak leh trime r, ciap leh tmbh2 yg x berkanaan lagi.. hehehe.... dlu x leh pown... kalo dlu kawan2 rapat ak taw r ble ak marah dowg sket pown x brani nk tego ak melainkn ak yg tego dorg dlu.. hehehe..... ble da dok kt mtrk, dok kt u, ak da boleh kawal, walaupown kadang2 terlepas r gak.. tp x rmai yg leh nmpk ka dlm state marah yg amat sgt.. hehehe.... ble da lme2 ak jd cm mlas nk marah org, kalo cm org wat pape yg bleh di katekn layak r untuk dimarah, ak jd cm mlas nk peduli.. bia je laa.... tp d exception gak r.. bkan ak leh tahan marah tok sume mende... ble ak rse cm nk marah jer ak akn dok jaoh2 dri org len.. dok senyap2, istigfar byk2..sbb kalo ak bkk mulut, bahaye...hehehe.... x pown ak akn cbe g bergelak ketawe ke pe ke... kalo ak x wat cm2, t x pasal2 d yg kne sembur walaupown x wat salah pape pown... naye je.... tp semenjak, duemenjak niey, temper ak cm snag ne balik.. ka da riso da.. takot jd cm dlu g.. ak d r gak trpk nk g jmpe kaunselor, tp 2 laa... mlas.. hehehe... bia la ak overcome mende niey sndri... hehehe... boleh ker????  ak niey bahaye ble da marah.. hehehe..... t byk r keluar perkataan2 yg x sepatotnye, lah n ble temper ak da stat nek, even the smallest mistake or the silliest mistake, leh wat ak mengamuk...... ak masih ag blaja nk kawal temper ak... harap2 as time fly, ak leh lower kn temper ak niey.. hehehe..... ak sndri pown takot ble temper ak nek coz ak taw what i'm capable of doing.... hehehe... tp xd la smpi nk g blasah org ker.. hehehe... sbb ak bkn cm some pmpn (ak ckp SOME bkn SEMUA), ble dowg marah gle2 dorg nanges. ak jenis yg akan cri something so ak leh lpaskn marah ak... tp nanges better than running amok.. hehehehe...tp xd la ak g blari kejar org ngan parang ke pe ke.. hehehehe.... ble ak pk2.. t nk kne kawen ngan owg yg sabar,,... yg leh tolong ak kawal temper ak niey... hahahaha... ke c2 lak pegi nye... blaja pown x abes g Aqilah Nordin oiii!!! hahahaha.... ble ak dok senyap, ak akn try reflect blek dri ak... ak akn try pk rational x ak marah2, perangai ak, byk mende laa ak pk.. kdg2 kalo ak marah coz gadoh ngan sape2, ak akn cbe pk blek sbb pe gadoh... i'll try 2 put myself in his/her shoes.. try rse pe yg dye rse, maybe not as a whole tp at least sket laa.... pk secare rational, jgn marah2 dlu.. kalo dlu ak pk ak je btol, kalo ak rse cm nk marah, ak marah jer.. peduli ape.... hahaha... tp 2 dlu laa... skunk da x daa... tp 2 laa... kadang2 ak x leh nk kawal temper ak, mybe sbb da byk ngat yg ak smpn.. membe bek ak penah ckp, 'ko jgn smpn sume dlm aty ko, t dye makan blek ko dri dalam'... ak sedar mende 2, tp ak x leh nk wat ape.. ak smpn je laa... x pown ak ambk jlan mudah dgn bia je mende 2 tergntung, x yah selesaikn... tp xleh.. t melarat.. ak da penah rse da.. tggl kn malsah n then melarat.. ak gak yg naye... hehehe...... tp 2 laahh.... skunk ak manage g r kawal temper ak walaupown sesekali terlepas.. tp stakat niey xd damage trok laa..... hehehe... hopefully ak leh kawal temper ak in the future n leh pk pnjg n lebih rational... hehehe.... -END-

stuck

[ENG]

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

I still see your face
All those memories of me with you keep coming to my mind
Everyday I meet with all my friends to drink, only remembering your face feels like a dagger in my heart
I forgot that you’ve forgotten that big smile but, we said you said you erased and cleared me from your head
This can’t be like this (really) that can’t be (really)
What will I do?

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

Are you forgotten? Have you forgotten how I look?
You heard I was fine so you’re comfortable without me?
You didn’t forget about me already
You’re looking for another love. Will you erase me?

I won’t, I’m not saying you only saw me drunk
Will you hear? Are you hearing me calling only for you?
A day (is passing) a month (is passing)
Why does my heart feel the same way?

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

Come back
I still only see you, I’m waiting for your love

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My heart is crying since your left

don't know why i get stuck to this song.... - one last cry by N- train -

note : a korean song everybody..... hehehehe......

i find this song is very nice and calming... hehehehe.... enjoy~~ 

why~~~

ak niey.... hmm...... it seems like i cannot forget him no matter how hard i try... come on me.... just think it is just a stupid crush!! he might belong to someone.. but seems like he's don't.. tp ... alaaa bengong laaa.............bia je laa... asal dye idup bahagia ak pown da nk dkat 2 blan x teserempk ngan dye... which has a good news n a bad news behind it... the good news is it can help me to forget him,.... but the bad thing is i miss him~~~ :p :p :p....... hahahaha.... bia la 2... this is out of topic da but.. lgu fav ak lately ialah winter rose.... tvxq yg nyanyi... japanese song.. n somehow the meaning of the lyrics terkesan kt aty ak... hehehe...

Romaji

Fuyuno seizano youni gairojuno akari
Sorawo oou beruno yukino otogasuru
Hanareteita jikanmo daite dakishimete
Want kiss sotto My love motto
Fukaku tsutaetai bokuha

Kimiga ireba soredeii
Sousa close to heart, close to my love
Tatta hitotsu shikanai aiga kokoni arukara
Kimino tameni irebaii
Itsumo close to heart, close to your love
Tokimekiwo kasaneau kokorono nakani winter rose

Kinya ginno mall ni afureru hitonami
Chiisana hakowo daita kimiga kaketekuru
Sono isshunni munega shimetsukerarete
Want kiss zutto Your love kitto
Kotaewo mitsuketa bokuha

Kimiga ireba soredeii
Sousa close to heart, close to my love
Futari dakewo futariha shinjite irareru hazu
Kimino tameni irebaii
Itsumo close to heart, close to your love
Samishisamo wakariau kokorono nakani winter rose

Imamadeno donna omoide nimo
Tada kono ichinichiwo yurushite
no more tears no more lies
Konyaha shiawasega mukuwareru tameno yorusa
Tsuyoku futariha musubareteru tsuyoku

Kimiga ireba soredeii
Sousa close to heart, close to my love
Tatta hitotsu shikanai aiga kokoni arukara
Kimino tameni irebaii
Itsumo close to heart, close to your love
Tokimekiwo kasaneau kokorono nakani winter rose

Translation

The winter stars, the illuminations on the roadside trees
The veil covering skies, the sound of the falling snow
Hug, hugging even the times we were apart
I want to kiss you softly, my love, more and more
I want to convey my deep feelings to you

My only hope is that, you be at my side
Yes, close to heart, close to my love
The one and only love is here in my hands
I will be here only for you, always
Close to heart, close to your love
Our love blends together, in our hearts, winter rose

The crowds overflowing in the golden and silver malls
You are running to me with a small box in your hand
Watching you at that moment, my heart leaps
I want to kiss you forever, your love, surely
I’ve finally found my answer

My only hope is that, you be at my side
Yes, close to heart, close to my love
We should be able to believe in our love
I will be here only for you, always
Close to heart, close to your love
We can even share our loneliness, in our hearts, winter rose

For each memory we hold up to this moment
Please forgive this day, no more tears, no more lies
Tonight shall be the time our happiness would be rewarded
We are strongly tied together, so strongly

My only hope is that, you be at my side
Yes, close to heart, close to my love
The one and only love is here in my hands
I will be here only for you, always
Close to heart, close to your love
Our love blends together, in our hearts, winter rose

hehehehe..... try finding the song on utube... hehehe... enjoy~~